I am just really bad at small talk when i am one on one with a person, i can't start a conversation, and my stomach always turns whenever a person yells at me. I can't take constructive criticism well and i work better when i am on my own. I just find it really hard when i am around people, i am just not a people person, I don't know whats wrong with me but everybody seems to take what i say the wrong way and i don't understand why? I try my best to change but when ever i try to be someone i am not it just complicates things more.
To me it sounds like you have social anxiety which I have too, because I am exactly the same way.. and i was like you for a few years not doing anything and staying at home, but I was looking to either study or find work and last year I did, I now work part time sorting out clothes, nothing special but it's a job and it's a stepping stone.
I'm not a shy guy, i did work at a petrol station but i felt depressed after two years, and i find it easy to communicate with women, but find it very hard to communicate and keep eye contact when a man comes near me, I guess it had something to do with me going to an all boys school and being sexually assulted three times by two guys when i was at school, and being bullied for the way i look, sing and my personality. I guess my fear also comes from being threatened by my uncle if i turn out a particular way he'd kill me and my dad would kick me out of home. I don't want to disappoint anyone especially my family.