Alright guys, I have finally decided to be honest on here. After much soul searching and prayer, I have been able to identify myself as bi. I have been one of those that have thought they could just ignore the other half of my feelings, but I know that can't happen any more. And I'm not out, which has been hard for me especially these past few days. I guess its because I see all these people (celebrities and local people) that are coming out and living their life. Anderson Cooper being one that just came out yesterday, and he was one that I thought would never come out. And with some support by several people in my life that do know, I feel that it is my time to be who I really am. And right now, I'm at the stage where I am so close, but can't find something that will push me other the edge and finally have the "talk" with my parents. Opinions in the southern US and my conflicting religious views have probably been a factor.
But the past day or so, I have found common ground with my religion, feeling that God must accept me because he made me in his image. Things like this have been a constant struggle. And what also makes it hard is that my mom said that if any of her children were gay, she would love them no matter what, but believes that they would face judgement like the southern christian churches say. This pulls me in two different directions at the same time. But deep down, I think she knows. Which is why I have been praying that she just winds up asking me about it, and I can finally just say yes, instead of having to work up the courage to tell her.
Thanks for listening to my venting everyone. I know things are going to be hard, but just typing this right now gives me some peace and clarity that everything will be okay...
Hey mate, I just wanted you to know being religious myself and coming from a maronite catholic background, i been brought up in a strict environment. i havent come out to my family because of the way they think so narrowly minded. I have a dad who would kick me out of the house and an uncle who would kill me. I don't really care what people think of me because all that matters is what you think of you, only you can make you happy. I want to share with you what I believe. When God Created the world he saw that it was good, he created man and woman and saw it was good but he didn't say except if you are gay or straight, he loves us all unconditionally. God would rather us to love one another than judge one another. Love and you will be loved, judge and you will be judged. Being gay does not make you any less human, it does not make you any less Gods creation and it does not make you anyless loved by God. God doesn't judge people for who they are, he judges them for the wrongs they do. To me accepting and respecting one another unconditionally, nomatter what is the way to go, not judging them. I hope I have helped. To me you stated that you are bi yet you feel uncomfortable to come out, you shouldn't be because you can still love girls, i think we can both say you have feelings for guys only and you are hinding behind the word bi. Love who you are man, it's ok to be you, dont let the haters get to you, you know who you are and thats what makes you beautiful. Remember God loves you.
Edited by Johnnii, 04 July 2012 - 01:53 PM.